is it all too hard?
By boyfriend and I fight a bit when we are drunk. They can get quite heated and we both say things we don’t mean. He says horrible things and refuses to listen to my side of the story and then always kicks me out saying “it is too hard, I am over it!” When I wake up the next day I feel terrible for three reasons. One I realize that we had another aggressive, stupid argument. Two I feel like we are over and he has dumped me because of the nasty things he has said. Three I realize that AGAIN it will be me texting or calling him to sort it out and forcing a chat.The REALLY scary thing is that I know he won’t call me. He has even admitted that he knows I will call. How selfish! Aren’t you supposed to give in a relationship, to support your girlfriend who you say you love? Why? Why should I be the one to fix it? Why do we have stupid arguments? When we are not arguing and sober we adore each other. He spoils me and we have a very happy, healthy relationship. Why the intense power struggle when we are drunk?Why do I have to constantly go through this? To wake up feeling shitty and unwanted to wonder if he will bother to call of I will break again? God knows this time I am not going to break but does this mean that he won’t call and will throw our relationship away? That would be pathetic!
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